I've been waking up late nowadays.
I woke up at 12plus today.
And i don't know why ? LOL

Slept late yesterday.
Watched 'Mighty Morphin Power Rangers ' at first.
Then halfway through the movie, me and my brother decided to watch 'Underworld'
Gerek dok! it's about the war of the Vampires and the Lycans(werewolves)
Bite here, bite there , blood everywhere .. Gore beb !
Favorite uh biase. can tahan la eh.
Then my dad came out of his room. " Korang buat ape? "
Tengok cerite la abeh. sebok siah. Hahaha !
Kurang ajar eh . takde lah, maen-maen aje .
So he too joined in . watch watch watch, movie end already lah.
Dad went back to sleep .
And since i and brother can't sleep, we played Dota.
Pagi pagi buta main game. haha. whatodo. cannot sleep mah.
So after playing Dota , switched off the com and we went to our room.
Continued with playing Bleach on my psp now . Hahaha.
Until at around 5 am and my eyes are closing slowly.
And i went to sleep first.

Hahahaha. ok stop.
Ends here. Bye .

it is dark , it is cold.
yes , it has been raining like since 12 pm
i can hardly type out the words in the dark .
but now, of course la the rain has stopped already.

last night was, fuck !
the fan in my room couldn't work. and i don't know why.
so i stayed up and watched my brother playing Dota .
too hot, how can i sleep.
eyes on the screen until around 2.45 and my eyes are starting to close.
i was sleepy. hell yeah. o.0

luckily i have air-con. phew*
so yeah, slept through the night in coldness.
its still freaking cold eventhough i covered myself with layers of blankets. =.=
the degree was like around, 18^o geez.
and when i woke up in the morning, there was an extra fan in my room.
i thought it was my brother who brought it in.
when i asked him, he said , "Tak uh"
mhmmm. wierd. ok nevermind.
oh yeah, it has been umm .. one , two , three , four , FIVE !
FIVE days that i have not met up with rose. i miss her so much okayy.
sadness. yeah, cant wait to see her soon .

girlfriend said i didn't care about her anymore.
it's not true ok. I've already replied your msg when i was at bedok interchange and on my way to school.
i waited and waited for your reply until i finish taking my report book, had lunch , went to look for soap for my auntie and until i went back home. Until at 5.32pm then your second msg came in.
saying that i don't care about you anymore.
like wth.
i do care alright.

i replied, but you were the one who didn't.
its maybe because there were some error shits and you didn't received it.
but why i msg my other friends, they can receive and not you ?
fucking weird siahh. =.="
im so worried okayy. and until now that you have yet to reply my msg.
i tried to call. but the phone is set OFF.
haizzz...please at least let me know that you are okay.
im FUCKING WORRIED !

Hello, yes i got my report book just now.
it was....quite bad/good ? =.=

i have five subjects altogether
i passed four and failed one
of course it is, maths. got a 'U' for math
like, WTF ?!

ive been failing math since i was in sec 1
seems like i cant really understand the topics and formulas of math
its the only subject that makes my mind go, BANG! you're dead.
still, im not giving up. i have to try harder and harder and at least get a 'D' grade for my math
each time i do math, i gotta aim to at least get extra five marks and on and on and on.
until i can make myself understand better and get a pass for math

alright, here is my position and percentage of my results.

Current position: 4/37 !
Percentage : 68.5

phew* im still in the top 5's . thank god.
thought i was kicked off from the top 5's.
Hahaha. my attendance was bad luh. 87/94.
skip school only ah ruzz ! XD

so yeahhh, quite disappointed in my results for the mid's .
haizzz..

school is gonna end in a few days time.
saturday, parents meeting session. shits !

my dumb teachers are gonna talk about me and how i behave at school.
well, they think im a 'good boy' at school.
padehal-padehal.. hahaha!
aku mischievious ade uh.
"ruzz, behave yourself in public ah" that was what my girlfriend always told me.
ROFL ! okok , i will (hopefully)
LOL

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and im planning to work with girlfriend this June holidays.
im totally broke so i have no other choice but to get a work.
rather than just sit and rot at home, better i go and find some money for myself first.
i need to get new clothes, jeans, shorts, watch, mp3 ! if possible, an ipod nano.
and maybe some other stuffs if there is enough money to spend :)
i hope everything goes as planned.

wish me luck fellaz !

can anyone be fair ?
is everyone around me being fair to me ?
what do you treat me like ? like a fool ?
it makes me sad, real sad.
and now, i can feel my mind wandering again.
into where i dont know =\


which part of me is wrong ?
am i looking for some substance ?
ive had this feelings for so long
i gotta let it out.
ive had.

ive just been digging all around for something like the truth
but in the meantime i'll say thanks
my mind is running out.
as long as this secret is kept so profound, it worries me ALOT !
and idk how long it will last and of what to happen.
its all crashing down on me.
everything about me is all out while yours still has some 'hidden contents' which i have yet to know about.
i cant embrace the truth.
haizz....


im just waiting..
im just waiting..
im just waiting..

im sorryyy, but i gotta let it out.

today is vesak day.
and im not going out cause there are alot of Buddhist people out there right now. lol
ive been like rotting at home from just now. =.=

i miss mama so much.
only god knows how much. =[[

return soon !!

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oh yeah, my auntie is coming soon with her little daughter.
can't wait for them to come. confirm keco !
hahaha XD

ok lemme start by saying, "I'M FUCKED UP!"
yeahhh, seriously. i went to the damn nokia shop with mu cuz just now to check on my phone.
it can't boot up. fucker. the nokia person said it's because of some software problems uh.
whatever shits la. needs to be updated though. so yeah, i'll be getting it back in a week or so.

i'm so frust. it's hard to contact my friends and of course, my girlfriend.
i'm using my mom's phone for the moment. so anything just msg me.
it's still my no. cause i changed my sim to my mom's phone. :)

uhuh. hassle ! =.=

yeah. went to watch "Congkak" with girlfriend just now . it wasn't actually scary la.
the sound effects of the movie made us startled. lol
at first when we arrived at the cinema, there weren't many people there.
there were a few people only who watched together with us. rofl

sikit siot. hahaha. the ticket was actually, $8. =.=
so yeah. rose planned to watch "Narnia". but, we'll see.
anyways, i enjoyed today yaw.

ok to start it off, today was hella boring i tell ya.
went to school and all we ever did was to do some fucking corrections. =.=
it was like so boring. shouldn't have went to school uh. hah
but whatodo. i still need to study and save up some money for this thurs.
me and rose baby are going to the movies again.
but this time, we are watching a horror movie. "Congkak"

the story is quite similar to "Jangan Pandang Belakang"
my all-time fav horror show. woohoo. ok lolz
can't wait for tmr. but im short of $6. anyone can lend me some ? lol
kidding la.

well that's all.
gtg now fellaz.

thank you for the sign babybear! iloveyou. ^_^
its gonna be our 9th month soon baby. i can't wait!
time will fly fast. just u see :)
RuzzANDRose. we are so close and alike. some people even said that we look like brother and sister.
whoa. unexpected huh. but yeah, we both agreed though.
we kinda do look alike. yay!
i wanna hold on to her no matter what happens. im not letting go. i love her only and just her please.

so yeah today, exams over ! woohoo !
no more pressuring for now. haha.
im done with exams. phew*

done niggahs. lol

yay! today is my 8th month with rose!110508 (:
happy 8th month baby! i love you.
so yeah, we went to catch a movie together at jurong theatre.
Nim's Island(above). gyeahh, it was quite interesting i can say.
but babyteddyrose found it quite, boring. sheeesh dia! haha
she wanted to watch ayat-ayat cinta actually. nak pilih mane satu nak tengok pon susah.
so at last, we decided to watch nim's island. i was the one who picked that show. lol

sorry babybear. next time watch something more best okay ?
sadly this month's movies doesn't interest me. hoping for some good ones to be showcased soon.
and oh, not to forget. happy mothers day mom! :)

yay ! changed to a new blogskin ! :)
this is what i've been searching. stars.
coolshit gitu kan ? hahaha.

oh yeah, anyone here fan of From First To Last too ?
if yes, pm me for the new album alright.
From First To Last is teh sex ! =D
woohooo !


alright, talking about studies now.
yesterday was english oral.
having to be at index no.29, i was the second last person to leave the group =.=
i like had to wait for the others to finish and it's my turn. wth.
one by one left and my turn came. idk what topic are they gonna talk about in the conversation.
so yeah, reading was easy lah. then comes the conversation part.
wanna know what it was about? it was abut restaurant. lol
the facilitator asked too many questions sia. banyak mulut uh. haha
and i answered like, ah g mampos ah. sembarang je uh. XD
blablabla. im done.

monday will be my last schedule of exams. yay !
best kepe. hahs. monday is err malay oral. gyeahh.
im not pretty good in malay. so uhh...need to read more malay books and watch tv on whatever shits malay shows ah. hahaha.
semangat eh? ape salahnye. it's for the final shit i'm taking. =D

and babylove, i miss u so much ! )):
meet real soon okayy ?
sunday is a special day for the both of us.
2 more days to 8th months babaayy !
i love u.

im going out with my family and cousins soon.
go makan la deyy. it's been awhile since all of us went out together.
looking forward to it :)

phew ! it's such a day, today. lol
went to meet rose as usual and we went to jurong east as she was looking for either shirts or bags.
shirts ? bags ? shirts ? bags ? grrh. better make a choice girlfriend ! fast ! hahaha
so we went around jurong point and at last, nothing.
spose to have already bought the kotak-kotak shirt at 77th street. but yeah, it was expensive =.=

so we decided to head to peninsula then.
i know alot of tees, skinny jeans, hoodies etc shits there. lol
and then she decided to get a cardigan.
so blablabla and yeah..
at last, she bought bag and cardigan. fooo !
altogether, umm around 45$ .

lol ok thats all.

today was cpa paper
senang gile siahh ! haha
i think everyone in the class will pass fer sure la kan
lol . tomorrow will be math paper 2 =.=

alright, let's see..
hmmm, 2 more papers to go and some shit orals and im done!
weee :D